alone/ solitude

I sometimes wonder do we really make a very big picture of being alone... or is it easy said than done for me right now?

i very much felt my dad will be left alone after my mom's death. but then he is fine. I felt will I be alone if I went far away for studies, but I am fine. In fact I found new friends.
I sometimes even feel will i miss being friends as in college. yes. Because then obviously you don't have so much time you had in college to spend together.
But then that will definitely not be the end of life. My friends, close relations will still exist, on phone, on FB, on Gtalk.. only that i will not be able to see them physically..

I was away from my country for a couple of months. and yes i was alone there. but I got a different experience of solitude. No phone. only connection to the outside world was a couple of hours of internet. other all hours immersed in work. That experience was very satisfactory.

I do think some days of solitude are good for self assessment and improvement of self as a person.. So instead of being afraid of being alone, its good to enjoy the solitude..(I know better said than done, but not impossible..) :)

After all we come on the earth alone. and go alone.meanwhile we gather people around us and create relations which help us live.

a new life...

yes there is a new life growing within me. I wonder how can i name the life. can the soul inside me decide its own name, its identity? I have nicknamed my to be baby as 'dudu'. I truly wonder how does the mind function in this case.
I have these nausea-tic feeling.i can and cannot eat a few things.I have suddenly got this urge of painting. Off course I am an artist, a commercial artist trying to get nito design management. never had i such an urge to get into paintings. had been to my principal yesterday. I truly cannot explain the feeling I had when i saw his sketches. I have never been so happy before on seeing the paintings.
My sixth sense has got stronger. there are some people i cannot bear. there are some things i have started liking immensely.
The joy when he/ she kicks in me is so immense. All the sadness goes away.Is this the joy of fulfilling the very reason we are on the earth? to perpetuate the species. humanities. I wonder what would be the liking of my child, how would he/ she behave? will all that i do now (maybe read books/ whatever) in these nine months really develop his/ her future psychologically?
I truly wonder if this is done and all controlled by this soul of my little one in my womb/ or what. I cannot understand this miracle of nature.